Oops, I skipped a day.

So, I've found out early on that blogging every day is quite a challenge.  The enthusiasm hasn't worn off or anything, but it is hard to find time to do put all of my thoughts down all at once.  After all, there are just SO MANY things going on in my head constantly.  Yesterday I ate very well.  I had oatmeal again for breakfast, an apple, banana and 1/2 avocado for a snack.  For lunch I had 2 soy shiitake burgers.  And for dinner a bowl of tomato soup with tofu.  I still had my 2 cups of coffee but with no creamer and tea.   Today was surprisingly easier!  Oatmeal and 1 egg white for breakfast and an apple and banana for a snack.  I went to my mom's for lunch and had 2 hard boiled eggs (I probably should have nixed the yolks but I love egg yolk!)  and 2 Morning Star soy breakfast sausage patties and a handful of baby carrots.  I had a kiwi for another snack and for dinner a whole wheat tortilla filled with vegetarian refried beans with chile and lime and shredded soy cheddar cheese.  

I find myself not feeling as famished throughout the day, and only after 3 days!  I am totally amazed and quite proud of myself.  I made sure to buy bottled water so I'll be drinking a lot more water tomorrow.  I still haven't weighed myself and I don't really have any intention to.  In the past, I would become literally addicted to the scale.  Every morning I would weigh myself, but not before going to the bathroom, clipping my toenails, blowing my nose and getting naked.  Anything that didn't need to be attached to me I needed to get rid of before stepping up to the plate.  But that wasn't all!  I would come home from work and follow almost the same routine before weighing myself AGAIN!  I could tell based on what I weighed at that time how much I could eat for dinner.  I would also hop on the scale right before bed as well, naked of course.  Whatever I weighed at night I could comfortably subtract 2 pounds from and assume that's what I would weigh in the morning.  On occasion, I would actually weigh less at night than I had that morning.  Oh glory day!  I would sleep so well that night!  For that meant I had really lost some serious poundage!  Because everyone knows you weigh less in the morning than you do at night.  And the cycle would begin again the next morning. 

So, this time around, since my goal is to change my way of life and how I eat in general, I am not calling this a diet.  And because I obsessively weigh myself when on a diet, I will not be weighing myself this time.  I'm sure it will come to a point when my curiosity will be just too overwhelming and I'll to hop on for a peek.  And that's ok.  I just don't want to be a slave to my scale anymore.  It's not about the number, it's about how I look and how I feel.  Hmmm, do I hear a mantra coming on?  I feel as though I've caught you up with the last 48 hours and I will try to write again tomorrow.  It really holds me accountable for all of my preaching and I hope it's helping someone else out there, too. 

Till tomorrow, here's some food for thought.